My Heart Already Died!

As fast as I run,
I still stay in place
I tried to clean up,
But I'm still a disgrace

And no matter what I do,
She'll be first in his heart
I so desperately wish,
That they were apart

It hurts me to know I'll never be his,
That I will never have that special first kiss
I wish I could stare into those big deep brown eyes,
And for that beautiful smile and heart to be mine

But for now, I'll deny any feeling of love,
I've been hurt too much, I've had quite enough

And until the day that he gives me his heart,
You will find me alone, and falling apart